Someone told me that "just because we are fighting a battle that we may never completely win, doesn't mean you have to let it get in your way and define who you become." These are the stories of my life..
I woke up last night at 10:15 and I had no clue where I was or who I was, I could feel my legs but the numbing sensation in them was freaking me out, my head was pounding and the moon light from my window made my head hurt worse, I was nauseous dizzy, confused and the balance in my body was zero when I stood I fell back to the floor. Now looking back on it I probably should have gone to the ER, but at the time I didn't know who I was. The worst part is I remember it. I wasn't low, I'm pretty sure my mom checked that. I just wanted to sleep in the bathroom because like I said I felt so sick and I wanted a cool washcloth. I got out of bed and fell back to the floor (gracefully I hope). While I was lying on the floor face first I realized that I was in my own room, I remember everything. I got up again and used the wall to help me balance all the way to the kitchen. How I made it there I will never know. My mom came out to ask me if I was okay and I stood in the kitchen hunched over with a hand on the counter and the other on my forehead and I started sobbing. I was embarrassed, scared, confused and super spinny. She escorted me back to bed and gave me some Tylenol. I couldn't communicate to her what I was feeling. I couldn't tell her that all ten toes were now nonexistent that the hot flashes were getting worse, that I woke up not knowing who or where I was. She stood there for a few more minutes and then left me with the dog who didn't leave my side the rest of the night.
This is has been going on for the past month. Sometimes it's linked to blood sugar, but most the time it isn't. I've seen my doctor again and he referred me to a cardiologist again who literally asked me why I was there. None of the episodes look like heart problems. Everyone thinks that these are mini seizures. They think there is something wrong with my brain and the way it sends waves or something. They also think that if it is seizures my blood sugar could be effected when my brain waves are interrupted for what ever reason. I'm so confused and every appointment is just another dead end. This is all starting to get really frustrating and discouraging. It's not even the fact that I'm having the episodes, it's the fact that when they do happen there's nothing I can do. I just have to ride it out and hope it turns out okay in the end. Which sucks big time because I feel like hell when this happens. Do you have any suggestions on any of this? Because I'm stuck.
Keep your head up and always try to remember where you are, Ellie <3 P.S Just for laughs video:
Yikes - that sounds scary. I hope that the doctors will be able to figure it out. Stay persistent with them and don't settle for anything less than an answer.
Yikes - that sounds scary. I hope that the doctors will be able to figure it out. Stay persistent with them and don't settle for anything less than an answer.
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