Partners In Crime

This is my best friend:

She's the bestest friend a person could ever ask for. She's always there to make you smile when nothing goes the way it should. She and I are polar opposites yet exactly alike all at the same time. She's knows what to do when I fall and how to pick me back up again, both mentally and medically wise. And she's got the most amazing personality. She's my best friend.

This is her and I camping:

                               

We decided to go camping one weekend. Our parents okayed us going out alone, although I'm pretty sure my father was on top of a mountain watching up all night. It might have taken us 45 minutes to start a fire and we might have gone to bed at nine, but it was fun. And being with your best friend means having fun just means more memories to last forever.

We've also done a few dangerous stunts:

We were breathing fire out of our mouths, but we were using corn starch, NOT ALCOHOL!! Just thought I'd throw that out there. 

Now, we of coarse did this with the supervision of my parents and the permission of her parents. But she is a thrill seeker and I don't think I would have stepped outside of my comfort zone if it wasn't for her willingness to torch her eyebrows, I say that in the most figurative way.

She's my best friend and I don't know what I would do with out her. She's ran from one end of the school to the other to get a wheel chair for me because I was about to pass out, she's stayed up countless nights with me because my blood sugar was to low to fall asleep, she's my bestest friend in the entire world and I would be me without her. And I wouldn't hesitate to return any of the favors she done for me. We're two peas in a pod who hate high school and love playing with fire, we're inseparable. She's my partner in crime and I just wanted to tell her thanks and maybe remind you to tell whoever your partner in crime maybe the the same thing.

Keep your head up and breathe fire,
Ellie <3

Keeping My Happy Face On

     I haven't posted in a while. Life has simply gotten away from me. In a matter of weeks I got my license, got a job, finish my second year of high school, got a boyfriend, and started being completely independent. I always knew that turning 16 would be a major turning point in my life. I just knew it, before that day I felt trapped, not in a bad way, but just trapped in a world where my world had to coinside with everyone else's. I couldn't do something if I couldn't find a ride, I couldn't eat somewhere if I couldn't find a ride or someone who would pay for me.. things like that. But now, I can do what ever I want, to an extent and I just feel free. I've let go of those strings that were attached to me and I've officially become my own person.

     And I'm not going to lie to you... This new found freedom has been AMAZING!! But, lately I've noticed that it's been taking it's toll. I've noticed that the emotional side has been weighing down on me, and the physical/medical side of it all has been making it's self known as well. And well, I've just been coping. I haven't been conquering, or fighting, or even trying, I've just been riding it. Sure I've come to terms with the fact that testing my blood sugar is no option and my boyfriend has been fine with that. It's just he's never seen  a sever moment where I can not physically handle things on my own, and I fear that if that does happen he won't know what to do because he just doesn't know. And I don't want to educate him or even bring it up because well it's still awkward. I don't want to HAVE to talk about it. But I know I HAVE to because my episodes lately are speratic with no pattern, and they've been bad.. like grey blurry vision, no freaking clue where I am, what I'm doing, or where I'm going, and dizziness like you can't imagine. And every time like clock work I test and I'm still hovering in the 120's-130's or every once and a while the 30's and 40's. I just don't understand it!!

It's like that elephant that sits in the middle of the room, except in my case it's that creepy monster.. (I have no pictures of me with elephants. Stick with me..) I feel like I'm slowly loosing hope. That there's nothing left to fight for, except for the fact that I have EVERYTHING left to fight for. So what do I do? To educate or not to educate? Tis is the question. And if I do, what do I say? Uhg... this is soo difficult.

For now I think I'll just keep my happy face on and keep riding it through.

Keep your head up and your happy face on,
Ellie <3

16

  May 12th, 1996, Mother's day. The day I was welcomed into the world. May 12, 2012, the day I turned 16.
My 16th birthday came and gone over the weekend and we had so much fun. My mother got a hotel room on the Las Vegas Strip and me, her, and two of my friends hung out for some supervised fun! We hung out by the pool, we shopped til we dropped, we ate, we shopped some more, we people watched, and other fun things. There was one thing that was almost microscopic the entire weekend.
My blood sugar.
I carried around my little wristlet and checked when I felt low, ate when I needed to, and kept going. It never really screwed with my head to much, it was just faded into the background. The one time it did come up in the conversation was when I was counting the carbs in an oreo brownie and Maddy asked me about it. I was floating in the 60's and wanted to make sure it would be enough, normally I wouldn't have been to picky about it, but it was midnight and it was like a mile walk from the arcade back to the hotel room (slight over exaggeration) and I didn't want anything to happen during that time period.
Now that I'm 16 I can get my driver's license and I am super excited! I take my test Tuesday. I'm excited to drive, but nervous to have that much responsibility especially with the way my body has been treating me these past couple of weeks. But never the less I am excited and ready for the challenge. I guess I'll figure it out as I go.

Keep your head up and happy Mother's Day,
Ellie <3

This Is Me

*Omggg! So I logged on about an hour ago and checked my stats... 27 in one day! Heck yeah!! So I don't know what you guys are doing to get people here or who you are but it truly means a lot to me!!*

      Anyways, for those of you just joining us, I hope you stay a while! I'm Ellie. I have (we're really not sure what I have we're still getting me tested for a variety of things), but I have hypoglycemia. I test my blood sugar 3-6 times a day and battle a LOT of lows. It sucks, but I've decided to share my stories here so you can read them too! If you want more info on what I'm going through check out the huh page or click the link here. 

     I also made a new video! Whoo! Hopefully I'll get around to making a video once a week. Cuz I can be that awesome. 

    

     I know isn't my bun CUTE?! I agree. Still learning how to do it though. Okay so before I go, this is an amazing song first off, but the music video is AMAZING!! It makes me laugh esspecially the middle where she gets towed. HAHA!

     So that's all for today. Sorry. I have to continue studying for finals. Blah. BUT! Before I go, follow me on twitter! @ellieluvs15. Yup. That's it everybody. 

Keep your head up and your site views comin,

Ellie <3 

My Secondary Family

I have my family that I'm really related to. They're amazing trust me, but that can't even begin to compare to my secondary family at school. They are the ones that keep me going and smiling even when I really don't want to.
  We'll call her Tweety Bird (to protect her identity). She's one of the sweetest nicest people you will ever meet. She can always make you smile and she knows what I'm going through. She will always be there if you want to talk and even though she's a red head I swear she's blond like me underneath. She's amazing and I'm proud to call her my sister. <3

We'll call her Blossom. Blossom and I really became amazing friends about the beginning of last year and we're more like sisters now. :D She's a shy one on the outside, but as soon as you really get to know her she's amazingly talented, funny, sarcastic and all around one of the best people I know. She will always make you smile and is willing to ditch with you (we've joked about it, never really have). She's an amazing person to know and I'm proud to call her my sister too! <3

We'll call her Sully. Because she has the best advice EVER!! You can come to her for anything. She will keep you sane and fend off evil annoying people if she has to. She's amazing! She's also the one that keep an extra packet of frosting on just in case of emergency and is the one that reminds me to literally breath when I stop (another story for later.) She's the best.

We'll call him Bugs. He's like my older brother. He's mister cool at school and everybody knows him, but he'll always show up out of nowhere to give you the best hugs when your crying. He's got the best advice and is willing to be late to third period to pray with you. He has a way of making  you feel safe and is not afraid to tell some one off if the try to hurt you. He's a great big brother I never really had.

We'll call him Taz. I've only known him for a little bit, but he's become an amazing friend. He also gives amazing hugs and is willing to chase you for two blocks to make sure you're okay when you run away from your house crying hysterically. He's a great friend you can always talk to.




So there you have it. My secondary family that I love to pieces and soo blessed to have!!! They make like at school tolerable and help me get through things in everyday life! I have a secondary family... do you?

Keep your head up and your family close,
Ellie <3

My Adventures with School

Sooo... the other day I was in guard...

That's what a final guard show looks like. 

and I felt low. Buuut I was 89 when we started class so I bucked up and kept going. Until... I fell 

                                       

None of these are me, but you get the point. 

A thought went through my head "hmm maybe you're low." So I double checked

What a magical number huh? 

Anyway. I walked to the nurse in my sweats and with an air head who I don't think could save me if something happened on my way up there let alone run to her next class if she had to. I know, I was pretty much writing my death wish then. Well I made it. I drank my juice box and ate my granola bar. I don't know if you know this, but when I go low the last thing I want people asking me is "how are you feeling?" and  "are you okay?" I'm 30 freaking 4 how do you think I am? Well... the lunch bell rang and I was still only 50. Grand right? They sent a student aid who could walk with out falling to get my back pack and my jeans (i was wearing sweats you dirty gutter minded people!) When she came back with my things I had to walk with the nurse to get my pizza. How embarrassing. But she's one of the nicest people ever so we had a pleasant conversation during our walk about lunch. (Random topic, I know.) So I buy my noodles (didn't have enough money for pizza... smh.) So when I got back another diabetic at our school was just bolusing for his lunch. Evidently he ussually eats in the nurses office. When he and the nurse finished he looked over at my flushed face and shakey hands, he actually knows I'm hypoglycemic. So he asked me how my day was going. I told him I've had better. The nurse looks at me rolls her eyes and turns back to him... "Don't let her fool you she's 34." I have never see anyone's eyes get so wide. 

His eyes are kinda bugging out... 

"On rough days I drop to about 40's. How did you manage to drop so low?!" He asked politelyish. 

"Guess it just takes awesomeness." I answered shrugging. That was that. It was over all an okay day. Minus the fact that I dropped again after school and spent all my money on noodles for lunch other than that I have nothing negative to say. Now you have a look at what my adventures at school entail. Don't get me wrong I love the nurses at my school and the diabetic I talked to at lunch is one of the nicest guys you will ever meet I just thought I'd share my story with you. Cuz I'm just. that. awesome. 

Keep your head up and your stories comin,

Ellie <3 

My Story

A few things you should know... 

• the camera was sitting on top of a klenex box on top of a stool on top of my bed, that's why it shakes every time I move... sorry. 
• It took 10 takes to get the index card part right. 
• I did stop shooting the video mid-way to correct the low. Now you know I'm seriously not lying when I say I feel absolutely nothing. 
• And on the last index card I forgot the s in thanks. As much as I would love to blame the low I can't, I mearly just can't spell.

So with out further ado this is my story. 

Keep your head up and your camera steady,

Ellie <3

Let's Get To Know Me! Part 3!

This is part three of this weeks Let's Get To Know Me! session. Here are today's questions:

1. What is on your bedside table?
answer: Um you got my $16 lamp from Target, my Ipod dock, my thermometer that tells me how hot/cold my room is not to see if I have a fever, my phone charger, phone, ear buds, book light, flash cards for last weeks English test which I never used to study, meter, some kind of edible thing for midnight lows, and a gum wrapper which is weird cuz I don't eat gum.

2.What are some of the books that have most impacted you?
answer: In 7th grade I got to meet Ben Michaelson in person. He wrote an amazing book called Spirit Bear. He also wrote a book called Tree Girl. I got a hold of Tree Girl and read it in like 2.7 seconds. I got so into that I would start sobbing randomly when I flipped the page. I remember my brother coming into my room to tell me it was time for dinner and running away because I was crying. I was so attached to the characters every word like tugged at my heart. It was an amazing book and I recommend it to everyone! I also loved the book Night by Elie Wiesel. It was a hard book to read because of all the detail, but it opened my eyes to see how lucky I am to be alive and blessed. I also got to meet him briefly as well. It was truely a humbling experience. After I read this book I had the privilage to go to the Holocaust museum in D.C. I still remember going through and thinking back to everything he said when he came to my school. It really did touch my heart.

This is Mr. Michaelsen and his bear. Yes his BEAR real BEAR. Cool huh? 

3. If you had a chance to bring any person back from the dead who would it be and why? 

answer: When I was 12 I had the honor of meeting this amazing person. I was at a church event playing tag with a few other kids. As I was running away I almost knocked the poor man over. I said I was sorry hoping he wouldn't get mad at me for running like I was not supposed to. Instead he asked if I knew what my name meant. I said I had no idea and proceeded to walk away. All week I wondered about what he had asked me. I found him the next week to ask him, but before he had a chance he said "it means set apart for God's purpose." I smiled. He introduced himself and we became best friends. His name was Pastor Mitch Prifogle. He changed my life. He was always smiling and willing to listen when ever I needed an ear. Until two Octobers ago in 2008. He became very sick and was put on bed rest. I begged people to take me to see him, but no one could ever find "time" to take me to see him. He past away that April 2009. I never got a chance to say goodbye or how much he meant and still means to me. I think about him all the time and know he's watching over me. I love him more than words can describe and will miss him forever. 

Pastor Prifogle. <3

Well on a happier note IT'S FRIDAY!!! Hope you have an AMAZING WEEKEND!! 

Keep your head up and THINK BLUE!

Ellie <3

Let's Get To Know Me! Part 2!

I'm back!! Here's another riveting installment of let's get to know me. :)

1. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
answer: Roll over and snooze my alarm clock. Seriously every morning. It's gotten so bad that I set my alarm clock for ten minutes earlier so that when I snooze it I actually wake up on time instead of later... If that makes any sense.

2. What countries have you traveled to?
answer: I've been all over the US, but never touched down in any other countries. One time I was going to New York and we flew over Canada. I count that as being to another country. So the answer to this question is for sure Canada.

3. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?
answer: Weirdest dream I've ever had was a reoccurring one when I was little. There were four evil penguins and a firetruck chasing me down a maze while I was driving a convertible (I think I was like 7 when I kept having this dream). I crashed the car into a wall and tried to escape the penguins, but they cornered me and took out a toothbrush and aimed it at my chest and then every time like clock work I would wake up. I still don't know if I lived or if I died a death by cavity free penguin!

Keep your head up and your tooth burshes near ya,
Ellie <3

Let's Get To Know Me!

Hello there. I have decided to provide you with a little relief from the daily grind today and tomorrow and maybe the next day. I'm starting a let's get to know me session that will last til the end of this week. Each day I will pick three random conversation starter questions, and answer them. You may get bored of this and if that does happen... tough nuggies I'm gonna do it anyway.

1. Who's the most famous person you've met?
Answer: I've met all four members of one of my favorite bands, Group One Crew, they really inspired me and it was an amazing experience. I've also met both senators for Nevada although I don't know how "famous" you would consider them. Yeah... I don't get around to much.

2. Who do I have on speed dial?
answer: Umm I'm not even sure how to set the speed dial on my phone. So no one right now. I've never really used speed dial or my contact list, I've always just remembered the important numbers.

3.Do I recycle?
answer: I never used to. Back before recycling was really the BIG thing to do. My family went to SeaWorld and went to see the Balooga Whale (how in the world do you spell balooga?!) They said that they were going extinct and it was because of all the plastic bags in the ocean. They also said that by recycling just one garbage bag you can save the equivalent of one balooga whale's tale. That caught my attention. When we got home I forced everyone in my family to start recycling. EVERYONE! I had signs and pictures and posters up all over the house telling my parents we needed to save the balooga whales. Now it's just become second nature. We've saved TONS of whales! So the answer to this question is yes I do recycle.

1st Post Ever

I was a tourist for Halloween last year.
If you asked me I nailed the costume. :) 

Hi!
It's so nice to meet all of you! I'm Elizabeth. Also known as Ellie. :) This is obviously my blog and my life story I guess you could call it. Umm let's see. I decided to make a blog like honestly 20mins ago. So here I am preparing to poor my life story on to you. So I should probably give you some background info huh? Well I'm 15 years old, I live in the desert (I hate the heat), I love chocolate, and oh I should probably mention this... I was diagnosed with reactive hypoglycemia about a month and a half agoish. Well it's a long story. Last summer I was showing the typical signs of diabetes. Constantly thirsty, always having to take trips to the restroom, loosing weight, always tired and grouchy. Then some new signs started showing up. When I was on a recreational swim team thing I was getting out of the pool and running to the restroom feeling like I was about to get sick. This continued on during dance class and when ever I was just down at the park. My mom and I decided to have my BG (blood glucose or blood sugar) tested by someone who had diabetes. It was right after dance class and I wasn't feeling to hot. The number came back to be 69. We ruled diabetes out, but little did we know that one point low 69 would be a big lead in my journey. Later in November I went on a band trip we were out in the sun for two hours and it took three hours for the ground to stop spinning after that. All signs pointed to anxiety attacks. Nothing the doctor told me to do for anxiety attacks were working. So in late April I took matters into my own hands. I bought a meter and started testing my own blood sugar. After seeing numbers as low as the 40's/50's I knew something was up. After many blood tests and all results coming back negative. I honestly think we gave up. The dr. told me to keep testing when I feel low and to come back soon. He wrote hypoglycemic on my discharge papers and here I sit. I find strength through the most random things and that's why I'm here. To give you strength. What ever it is you're going through you should know you're never alone. :) So please keep reading from time to time. I promise they won't all be this long. If you have any questions please let me know. I'd love to answer them. So I'll leave you with a quote that I got off of the Halls cough drops "Just buckle down and get through it." 
Keep your head up,
Ellie <3