Elliot The Elephant

     Elliot the Elephant. He's become my new companion. There's a story behind this little guy, and by golly you're gonna want to hear this. A few weeks ago my Grandma and I went shopping. I found this elephant for $2.00. So I carried him around so I could buy him. Well I blacked out on the ground and the clerk was the first one to find me. Well she and my Grandma started yelling at each other about whether or not to call 911. When I woke up the lady was pinning me down against the floor. I told her to get off of me and let me go, but she just held me down tighter. So with out a second thought I took the elephant that was still in my hand and I smacked her across the face with it.. she let go of me. I handed her three dollars from my purse and walked out.
     Elliot has been by my side every step of the way since then. When I come out of these episodes I'm scared, I'll admit to it. Especially when there are people I don't know involved. Elliot has protected me once by getting the lady to get off of me, in my mind he can do it again. It's sad I know. I'm 17 years old I shouldn't be so dependent on the stuffed animal. But he's been there. Last Tuesday I had what they classify as a grand mal seizure. What I would call a time to just call it quits. I woke up and my brother was the only one home so he called my grandparents. Why he didn't call 911 I will never know. But it was bad. Elliot the elephant was the only thing that could calm me down enough to talk my brother through what to do it it happened again. And it did. It was a bad night and the elephant was with me the whole time. I call that friendship. I'm going back to the neurologist tomorrow to see what to do next, but until than Elliot the elephant and I will be keeping close to cushioned ground because having a full on seizure hurts your head.. just take my word for it. So what makes you feel safe?

Keep your head up and I highly recommend not smacking anyone with a stuffed animal they tend to not appreciate that,
Ellie <3

And just for your video enjoyment... :D Enjoy.

When I'm Gone

      Because I like singing and this is a cool song thing.. I thought I would share. :) Have a great day!

I'm A Little Stuck

     I woke up last night at 10:15 and I had no clue where I was or who I was, I could feel my legs but the numbing sensation in them was freaking me out, my head was pounding and the moon light from my window made my head hurt worse, I was nauseous  dizzy, confused and the balance in my body was zero when I stood I fell back to the floor. Now looking back on it I probably should have gone to the ER, but at the time I didn't know who I was. The worst part is I remember it. I wasn't low, I'm pretty sure my mom checked that. I just wanted to sleep in the bathroom because like I said I felt so sick and I wanted a cool washcloth. I got out of bed and fell back to the floor (gracefully I hope). While I was lying on the floor face first I realized that I was in my own room, I remember everything. I got up again and used the wall to help me balance all the way to the kitchen. How I made it there I will never know. My mom came out to ask me if I was okay and I stood in the kitchen hunched over with a hand on the counter and the other on my forehead and I started sobbing. I was embarrassed, scared, confused and super spinny. She escorted me back to bed and gave me some Tylenol. I couldn't communicate to her what I was feeling. I couldn't tell her that all ten toes were now nonexistent  that the hot flashes were getting worse, that I woke up not knowing who or where I was. She stood there for a few more minutes and then left me with the dog who didn't leave my side the rest of the night.
     This is has been going on for the past month. Sometimes it's linked to blood sugar, but most the time it isn't. I've seen my doctor again and he referred me to a cardiologist again who literally asked me why I was there. None of the episodes look like heart problems. Everyone thinks that these are mini seizures. They think there is something wrong with my brain and the way it sends waves or something. They also think that if it is seizures my blood sugar could be effected when my brain waves are interrupted for what ever reason. I'm so confused and every appointment is just another dead end. This is all starting to get really frustrating and discouraging. It's not even the fact that I'm having the episodes, it's the fact that when they do happen there's nothing I can do. I just have to ride it out and hope it turns out okay in the end. Which sucks big time because I feel like hell when this happens. Do you have any suggestions on any of this? Because I'm stuck.

Keep your head up and always try to remember where you are,
Ellie <3 
P.S Just for laughs video: 

  

"I will NOT Punch The Mail Man... Today"

I get on the bus at a lower than awesome 57. I take 1 sugar shot of 14 carbs (not a legit shot like with needles, but like alcohol kinda shot.) ((I've realized what I just said came out very very very wrong!!)) Anyways I had 14 carbs thanks to the Nerds candy. Then a friend was like "Yo! I got you a cookie" Those words are like music to my ears so I ate my cookie getting off the bus with an exact 80. I got into the groove of walking home and totally spaced out. I'm not sure if I can blame the low for this one or if I'm just that spacy. Any who, I spaced out and out of nowhere the mail man comes out of this guys yard. He was whistling , I was spaced out, it just didn't go well. All of a sudden I heard his footsteps and almost punched the guy in the nose. It was a new mail man the other guy knows I will punch you if you come out of nowhere and he always keeps his distance. This guy... not so much. So as I ball my fist up to punch the guy I realize who it was and told myself "Smile and nod keep walking home, you got this." 

I did NOT punch the poor mailman and I DID make it home. Just a day in the life of a blonde person reminiscing about a cookie. 

Keep your head up and your cookies near,

Ellie <3 

What Doesn't Kill You

I bought a new song on Itunes it's by Kelly Clarkson. It's an amazing song that is so inspiring and moving.

You think you got the best of methink you had the last laughbet you think that everything good is gone 
think you left me broken downthink that i'd come running backbaby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong.
Those words speak to me, they describe what i think about lows. They think they've left me broken down and that everything good is gone... It's NOT!! I'm still living and I'm still strong. It can't take me down with it, I will ALWAYS bounce back up. Because what didn't kill you makes you stronger.

That's an amazing song. I love it to pieces!!! Listen to it when every you feel low or annoyed or just ready to give up. 
Keep your head up and the inspiration coming, Ellie <3 
P.s don't ask why it's in blue blogger just decided to be a bugger. 

This my friends, is my brother's annoying song of the week. It seems like once a week he finds an annoying song that he likes and sings it over and over and over again. This is this weeks song. You can thank me later. :) 

Keep your head up and annoying songs OUT OF YOUR HEAD,
Ellie <3

This Is Me

*Omggg! So I logged on about an hour ago and checked my stats... 27 in one day! Heck yeah!! So I don't know what you guys are doing to get people here or who you are but it truly means a lot to me!!*

      Anyways, for those of you just joining us, I hope you stay a while! I'm Ellie. I have (we're really not sure what I have we're still getting me tested for a variety of things), but I have hypoglycemia. I test my blood sugar 3-6 times a day and battle a LOT of lows. It sucks, but I've decided to share my stories here so you can read them too! If you want more info on what I'm going through check out the huh page or click the link here. 

     I also made a new video! Whoo! Hopefully I'll get around to making a video once a week. Cuz I can be that awesome. 

    

     I know isn't my bun CUTE?! I agree. Still learning how to do it though. Okay so before I go, this is an amazing song first off, but the music video is AMAZING!! It makes me laugh esspecially the middle where she gets towed. HAHA!

     So that's all for today. Sorry. I have to continue studying for finals. Blah. BUT! Before I go, follow me on twitter! @ellieluvs15. Yup. That's it everybody. 

Keep your head up and your site views comin,

Ellie <3 

When We Stand Together

Music. It's what calms me, it keeps me sane, awake, alive, myself, it's what keeps me... well me. When I'm driving I get frazzled really easily and start yelling at the other drivers (I know bad habit) But if I turn the music on it calms me down and keeps me level headed. Don't ask me why it just does. I have a new found love for this song by Nickelback. I've never really been a fan of their music, but for some reason this song speaks to me. I know it sounds crazy, but it's true. It's called When We Stand Together. Here it is... 

Keep your head up and stand together,

Ellie <3 

My Adventures with School

Sooo... the other day I was in guard...

That's what a final guard show looks like. 

and I felt low. Buuut I was 89 when we started class so I bucked up and kept going. Until... I fell 

                                       

None of these are me, but you get the point. 

A thought went through my head "hmm maybe you're low." So I double checked

What a magical number huh? 

Anyway. I walked to the nurse in my sweats and with an air head who I don't think could save me if something happened on my way up there let alone run to her next class if she had to. I know, I was pretty much writing my death wish then. Well I made it. I drank my juice box and ate my granola bar. I don't know if you know this, but when I go low the last thing I want people asking me is "how are you feeling?" and  "are you okay?" I'm 30 freaking 4 how do you think I am? Well... the lunch bell rang and I was still only 50. Grand right? They sent a student aid who could walk with out falling to get my back pack and my jeans (i was wearing sweats you dirty gutter minded people!) When she came back with my things I had to walk with the nurse to get my pizza. How embarrassing. But she's one of the nicest people ever so we had a pleasant conversation during our walk about lunch. (Random topic, I know.) So I buy my noodles (didn't have enough money for pizza... smh.) So when I got back another diabetic at our school was just bolusing for his lunch. Evidently he ussually eats in the nurses office. When he and the nurse finished he looked over at my flushed face and shakey hands, he actually knows I'm hypoglycemic. So he asked me how my day was going. I told him I've had better. The nurse looks at me rolls her eyes and turns back to him... "Don't let her fool you she's 34." I have never see anyone's eyes get so wide. 

His eyes are kinda bugging out... 

"On rough days I drop to about 40's. How did you manage to drop so low?!" He asked politelyish. 

"Guess it just takes awesomeness." I answered shrugging. That was that. It was over all an okay day. Minus the fact that I dropped again after school and spent all my money on noodles for lunch other than that I have nothing negative to say. Now you have a look at what my adventures at school entail. Don't get me wrong I love the nurses at my school and the diabetic I talked to at lunch is one of the nicest guys you will ever meet I just thought I'd share my story with you. Cuz I'm just. that. awesome. 

Keep your head up and your stories comin,

Ellie <3 

Crap...

I have a twitter!!!!! But... I'm still not sure exactly how to use it. ANND I look unloved because I follow people, but no one has yet to be following me. SOO I guess this is where all you lovelies come in... follow me! Please??
@ellieluvs15
DO IT NOW!!!!

Keep your head up and teach me how to twitter teach me teach me how to twitter,
Ellie<3

   
 

I used to be in gymnastics... Key word used to. I sucked. I can do a perfect cartwheel, one handed cartwheel, cartwheel round off and that was about the extent of my training. Sad right? Well, I was setting choreography for a new dance I'm trying and I decided it would look a ton cooler if I had a running cartwheel round off. This is about a third grade level trick easy right? Not. I barely got the cartwheel down and almost fell on my neck trying to add the round off in. Moral of the story is don't do stunts with out a spotter. (some one who is there who is strong enough to catch you.) I fell twice and woke up this morning barely able to move and sore. I'm going to try again today with some one who can spot me. Hopefully everything will go right and I'll be able to post a video of the dance soon. Well, maybe not this one, but for sure the other one to Bruno Mars I'm working on. I'll keep you posted. :P

This is the song I'm working on right now. :D 

Keep your head up and your spotter close,

Ellie <3 

My Story

A few things you should know... 

• the camera was sitting on top of a klenex box on top of a stool on top of my bed, that's why it shakes every time I move... sorry. 
• It took 10 takes to get the index card part right. 
• I did stop shooting the video mid-way to correct the low. Now you know I'm seriously not lying when I say I feel absolutely nothing. 
• And on the last index card I forgot the s in thanks. As much as I would love to blame the low I can't, I mearly just can't spell.

So with out further ado this is my story. 

Keep your head up and your camera steady,

Ellie <3

Merry Christmas

I'm going to be on a blogging break for a while, but before I left I wanted to leave you with the cutest bear EVER!!!!!!! 

Keep your head up and your Christmas merry,

Ellie <3 

Yesterday was a tough day. I ended the day with about 5-6 lows that dropped below 70's. The last one of the night was the one that left me at my breaking point. I don't show emotion when I'm around other people, or at least I try not to. Yesterday I had eaten a second lunch and was sitting on the couch waiting to bounce back up from my 5th low. I had a headache that the last low left me and I wasn't to excited about the fact that it wasn't going away. I was annoyed. All of a sudden I started feeling sick to my stomach. I just wanted to go to sleep, but I was to shaky to make it to my room. So I layed there on the couch. Suddenly I started uncontrollably crying and I wanted nothing more than to run away and hide from everybody. It was only 4:00 in the afternoon, but I was already in my PJ's trying to fall asleep. It didn't even cross my mind that I was low until the room started spinning. I tested and drank a juice box and cried silently for a half hour at the fact that I couldn't go hang out with the guests we had over because I was low and couldn't stop the room from spinning. I hit my breaking point and sitting there aware that this was happening stung a little bit. What helped was knowing I'm not alone knowing there are people who know what I'm going through. It's a tough pill to swallow sometimes and it hurts knowing I'm going to be swallowing this pill forever, but I swallowed it and I'm ready to move fourth and push myself harder. So if you're crying silent tears right now just know you're not alone. I promise.
Keep your head up and your juice boxes handy,
Ellie <3

And for your veiwing enjoyment... It's always been on my bucket list to ride a segway. These guys did the impossible with one. You should check it out it's a pretty amazing story. :P

The big question... Can you microwave that??

I got bored...