The Breakup

It's true. As many of you know I test my blood sugar three times a day at least more if I feel needed. I named my meter Ottis. He has always been a great listener who would be okay if I threw him against the wall because I was mad at a number he gave me. Lately he just been getting it all wrong. He's been showing me all these LOW numbers in the 40's and super low 50's. Today he showed me 2 70's one 50 and one 60. I was mad. I told him we had to break up that he's the one that messed this great relationship up and that we were never meant to be together. So Ottis is you're listening. Go fly a kite! Cuz you've been super annoying today!! It was nice while it lasted.

Keep your head up and your heart intact,
Ellie <3

Confessions and Inspiration

My name is Elizabeth. I am a 15 year old girl who is just trying to get through life with the minimal bumps and bruises. I've given up way more than once and to be honest I've let things slow me down including hypoglycemia. I can act strong and say everything's okay, when truly on the inside I can't stand on my own two feet. But, amiss all the pain and maps trying to get through the daily struggles I get to "meet" people who inspire me every day. I emailed someone and I didn't expect to see the response back. I checked my stats when I got home from school and I've had more views than ever and it was amazing. There was one reffering site behind it all and it was naturallysweet. Her name is Haley and she is a HUGE inspiration. I ask that everyone take a minute and show her some love on her blog and just read. Because she really does make a difference. Thanks for all the love you show me on a daily basis!

Keep your head up and the smiles coming,
Ellie <3

It could be that I had three tests I was worrying about or that my numbers just didn't want to cooperate with me today, but I was off all. day. long. First off I woke up low at 73. I corrected it fine and moved on with my day. My scheduled morning check was 56. Went to the nurse, drank a juice. My retest was 69 so I ate a granola bar went back to class fine. Fifth period rolls around and I'm starting to get groggy, noises are taking over and every whisper sounds like a gong going off in my brain. I was dizzy, I couldn't concentrate on getting myself from point a to point b or even caring about getting to point b. If you knew me you could tell something was up, but to most people I just look like I went to a rager last night and came home drunk. A usual sight for my school. Finally it was lunch time. I fought my way to the front of the lunch line mentally flipping the girl that cut me off, sorry girl. I went back to where I sit and tested. 62. I ate my pizza and went on my way assuming it came up. I got to choir my last period of the day. I start sobbing, my toes are on fire and tingly, I can't move my lips without getting a strange sensation in my cheeks. Voice checks. I have to sing sapprano 2 alone in a group to make sure I know my part for a 200 point grade. During the run throughs I looked like death, I felt like death. Came time to sing I was confident that I was going to blow it. I don't know how I did it, but I pulled that song out of my A#@ and did amazing. I finally got some sense and retested 50. Hmm maybe that's why. Today was a sucky day. It stinks that people everywhere are all having to deal with the lows and the emotional and physical stress of our daily grind. As you head off towards your Thanksgiving destination please be thankful for what you have. As sucky as this gets I'm thankful it's me and not someone else in my family. I pray you all have an amazing safe holiday!

Keep your head up and the Turkey stuffed,
Ellie <3

I'm Sexy and I Know It

I got on the bus this morning as usual. I was mad at the world for creating Mondays.It's a ten minute bus ride from my house to the school. 1/2 of that bus ride was spent listening to this horrid song. Any song with 50% of the lyrics being giggle and passion in my pants should NEVER be played on the radio... EVER!! I hope your Monday was better than mine. :)

Keep your head up and your passion OFF MY RADIO,
Ellie <3

Listen and Be Amazed

This is a powerful song. Listen to it and be amazed. <3

Keep your head up and the amazing songs coming,
Ellie <3

Updates and Pictures Of Awesomeness!!!!

That's right I just got done uploading some pictures from the past couple of weeks! whoo! so with out further adu (spell check?) here you go :D

We'd been camping for like 3 dayz that's why our hair was so messed up. 

There was a battle of the sexes night at the youth group I go to in Vegas. That's what happened...

You know your life is complete when your favorite singer is on a snack you eat at least 4 times a day. 

I painted my toenails blue with silver circles on them in support of diabetes awareness month. 

I didn't know she was taking the picture. That is what my cousin and I call the spider swing. 

My grandpa and I chased an ice cream truck down for 1/4th of a mile. We never get ice cream trucks in the rural area of the city so we had to take the opportunity. 

My view from our jeep expedition. That was the other jeep that went with us. 

We know interupt this blog reading for some very important news...

I am now a permitted driver. :P Look out Vegas!!




That is all.

Weekend Recap (Pics to come)

I was gone over the weekend to enjoy some fun filled family time in the middle of the desert. It was amazing I haven't been camping in sooo long it was so much fun to go hang out for a couple days. On Friday I got back out on the quads, didn't crash once super excited about that. :) I only had one epic fail of the weekend and it's one of those thank God I'm still alive kinda things which I will get back to in a moment. Today I also tested to get my drivers permit. I swear the DMV failed me because they want more money. Any ways I'll try again tomorrow and do amazingly awesome! 

As for my near death experience. For someone who goes through these often you may look at me with furrowed eye brows and call me crazy, but for me this is scary and I don't even remember it all. It started Sunday morning, I was out with a friend on a go cart and everything started to seem a little blurry and every jolt over a bump seemed to make my head spin and my toes tingle. I knew that feeling all to well. I had her rush back to camp and I set out to make a hot dog. As soon as I took it off the girl my uncle announced they were going on a jeep ride and I was welcome to come. I was dying to go so I grabbed my kit and my belt bag (a tiny little bag that straps to my belt, I keep 6 glucose tabs, a tootsie roll, and my emergency ID in there). We headed off. I ate the rest of my lunch in the car as we scaled hills and such in the jeep. About an hour later we stopped at a mountain. I was so excited I took off up the mountain. When I reached the top I started to notice the all to familiar tingliness, the dizziness, and my anxiety was so high I couldn't keep my grip against the rock. I went back to the car and tested. When it finally beeped I looked down at first I was seeing doubles it looked like an E6 at first and I was so mad, but my cousin came over and read it to me. I'll never forget the shakiness in her voice... "Umm that says 46. Is that okay?" I panicked. 46? I just ate a fricking hot dog how is this logically possible. I remember shakily eating 5 glucose tabs and a tootsie roll and focusing on not passing out which I so desperately wanted to do. Next thing I know I'm waking up in my bed in the trailer with an alarm going off that says retest your BG. What the heck happened was the first thing I thought of. I was scared on what happened. My mom came up and asked me if I was feeling better. My answer was "I guess so, I don't remember how I felt before, but I feel fine now." I told her I was hungry and she said I just ate 3/4 of another hot dog about a half hour ago, that I spilt ketchup all over me and that I started bawling. I don't remember any of that... like at all. Those are the moments that scare me. Those are the moments that make me want to scream. Those are the moments that remind me every second that I am blessed to be living.

Just one of the things I find oddly ironic one of the best weekends I've had in a long time and I don't even remember part of it. Sad huh?

Keep your head up and your memory intact,

Ellie <3   

I Didn't Want To Loose My Appetite

 

For all of you who have used glucose tabs or have suggested them to me forgot to mention one tiny itty bitty detail. That the tabs mixed with toothpaste and a juice box taste HORRID!! Yesterday my mom was coming to pick my brother and I up for lunch seeing as though we didn't have school. As I was getting ready for the day I notice my usual symptoms of a low. I was just going to have a juice box to bring it up just enough that I wouldn't loose my appetite, but would correct the low. Of course the last juice box we had was leaking and didn't have a straw. Fuzzy brained me wasn't thinking straight and didn't just cut a hole in the juice box and poor it into a cup. No. I threw that sucker in the trash and stormed away. Maybe I could just wait until my mom gets home and the we'll go to lunch. No the room started spinning. So I went to my next best option the tabs... I ate one and went back to carry on with my day. (I hate just waiting for lows to come up.) So I went to brush my teeth. WORST. IDEA. EVER! Glucose tabs and toothpaste taste like. I don't even want to describe it. So that's my story and advice for the day. Hope you all are wearing blue! 

Keep your head up and your tabs AWAY from the toothpaste,

Ellie <3 

Where's the mosquito spray?!

I'm already packing for my first camping trip since this whole thing started. I'm nervous because for me camping means activities, and going out on the quads, and not returning for several hours. I'm worried about the lows that may happen when I'm not in any supervision. Like when my brother and I decide we need to the top of the mountain on the other side of the lake bed and run out of gas and end up walking back. I'm worried about those lows and I'm not sure what to pack or even think about packing for those kinds of things. I'm the type of person who doesn't want to just avoid them, but doesn't want to bring anything extra with her. So if you have any suggestions I would be happy to take them at this time. Thanks! Don't forget to THINK BLUE tomorrow!!!

Keep your head up and the mosquito spray close,

Ellie <3

I'm sueing for false advertising...

Everything DOES NOT come naturally!!  Managing blood sugars purely on diet and numbers that may or may not be accurate does not come naturally. You can practice and practice and practice and it will never get perfect. Two weeks without having to go to the nurse, sure I had lows but they were the type I could handle without worrying about passing out or going into a state where I wouldn't be able to help myself. I was excited as I made my way through my day because I hadn't gone low. I got a 62 during guard and those are the ones that scare me because they can't for the life of them figure out that I just need to eat. So I went to the nurse 15 mins later I came back. I don't ask for special treatment and I don't ask to go to the health office unless I feel I NEED to. So when I came back and picked up the conversation where I left off and jumped back into the days activities people were surprised. They said I make it look so easy so natural. Yes, it's second nature now, yes it's part of my routine now, but that in no way, shape, or form does that mean it comes naturally. That's what bugs me the parts that people don't see and assume they know. They don't see how boring the health office is when you're there that often. Sure I get to use my phone and my Ipod, but that's only cuz it's like sitting in a freaking doctors office. So I've decided to sue myself for false advertising. For making it look like I have it all under control when I don't. When people say I wish I could leave class when ever I want, I want to slap them across the face and be like NO YOU DON'T. I blame myself and for lacking on the whole education part of everything. Happy Tuesday guys.

Keep your heads up and keep educating,
Ellie <3

Q.O.T.D #1

So last week was the let's get to know me session and for this weekend I thought it would be cool to do a question of the day today and tomorrow and then tell you some random stuff along the way. :) 

Today's Question Of The Day:
I am a rock group that has 4 members, all of whom are dead, one of which was assassinated. Who am I?


Is it the Beatles?

  

Umm no. 

*I never got the name The Beatles. It erks me almost because really why would you want to even BE a BUG! They're bugs for crying out loud! 

Is it the Jonas Brothers? 

Umm no. 

*Buuut they are like one of my favorite BANDS. Nick's solo project was amazing, but Joe's just kinda flopped. They are three of the most inspirational people I know and have the nicest manager by the way. 

ANSWER: 

 MOUNT RUSHMORE! Get it rock group... they're made out of rock... lame I know, but here is something that will get you laughing. 

This is the mount Rushmore rear view. :)

Keep your head up and your rears out of stone, 

Ellie <3

P.S Don't forget about this week's BLUE FRIDAY so don't forget to think BLUE!!!! 

(that's bolded, italicised, underlined, capitalized, AND color coded SO YOU WON'T HAVE AN EXCUSE TO SAY YOU DIDN'T KNOW!!!!) have a great day.

Let's Get To Know Me! Part 3!

This is part three of this weeks Let's Get To Know Me! session. Here are today's questions:

1. What is on your bedside table?
answer: Um you got my $16 lamp from Target, my Ipod dock, my thermometer that tells me how hot/cold my room is not to see if I have a fever, my phone charger, phone, ear buds, book light, flash cards for last weeks English test which I never used to study, meter, some kind of edible thing for midnight lows, and a gum wrapper which is weird cuz I don't eat gum.

2.What are some of the books that have most impacted you?
answer: In 7th grade I got to meet Ben Michaelson in person. He wrote an amazing book called Spirit Bear. He also wrote a book called Tree Girl. I got a hold of Tree Girl and read it in like 2.7 seconds. I got so into that I would start sobbing randomly when I flipped the page. I remember my brother coming into my room to tell me it was time for dinner and running away because I was crying. I was so attached to the characters every word like tugged at my heart. It was an amazing book and I recommend it to everyone! I also loved the book Night by Elie Wiesel. It was a hard book to read because of all the detail, but it opened my eyes to see how lucky I am to be alive and blessed. I also got to meet him briefly as well. It was truely a humbling experience. After I read this book I had the privilage to go to the Holocaust museum in D.C. I still remember going through and thinking back to everything he said when he came to my school. It really did touch my heart.

This is Mr. Michaelsen and his bear. Yes his BEAR real BEAR. Cool huh? 

3. If you had a chance to bring any person back from the dead who would it be and why? 

answer: When I was 12 I had the honor of meeting this amazing person. I was at a church event playing tag with a few other kids. As I was running away I almost knocked the poor man over. I said I was sorry hoping he wouldn't get mad at me for running like I was not supposed to. Instead he asked if I knew what my name meant. I said I had no idea and proceeded to walk away. All week I wondered about what he had asked me. I found him the next week to ask him, but before he had a chance he said "it means set apart for God's purpose." I smiled. He introduced himself and we became best friends. His name was Pastor Mitch Prifogle. He changed my life. He was always smiling and willing to listen when ever I needed an ear. Until two Octobers ago in 2008. He became very sick and was put on bed rest. I begged people to take me to see him, but no one could ever find "time" to take me to see him. He past away that April 2009. I never got a chance to say goodbye or how much he meant and still means to me. I think about him all the time and know he's watching over me. I love him more than words can describe and will miss him forever. 

Pastor Prifogle. <3

Well on a happier note IT'S FRIDAY!!! Hope you have an AMAZING WEEKEND!! 

Keep your head up and THINK BLUE!

Ellie <3

Let's Get To Know Me! Part 2!

I'm back!! Here's another riveting installment of let's get to know me. :)

1. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
answer: Roll over and snooze my alarm clock. Seriously every morning. It's gotten so bad that I set my alarm clock for ten minutes earlier so that when I snooze it I actually wake up on time instead of later... If that makes any sense.

2. What countries have you traveled to?
answer: I've been all over the US, but never touched down in any other countries. One time I was going to New York and we flew over Canada. I count that as being to another country. So the answer to this question is for sure Canada.

3. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?
answer: Weirdest dream I've ever had was a reoccurring one when I was little. There were four evil penguins and a firetruck chasing me down a maze while I was driving a convertible (I think I was like 7 when I kept having this dream). I crashed the car into a wall and tried to escape the penguins, but they cornered me and took out a toothbrush and aimed it at my chest and then every time like clock work I would wake up. I still don't know if I lived or if I died a death by cavity free penguin!

Keep your head up and your tooth burshes near ya,
Ellie <3

Let's Get To Know Me!

Hello there. I have decided to provide you with a little relief from the daily grind today and tomorrow and maybe the next day. I'm starting a let's get to know me session that will last til the end of this week. Each day I will pick three random conversation starter questions, and answer them. You may get bored of this and if that does happen... tough nuggies I'm gonna do it anyway.

1. Who's the most famous person you've met?
Answer: I've met all four members of one of my favorite bands, Group One Crew, they really inspired me and it was an amazing experience. I've also met both senators for Nevada although I don't know how "famous" you would consider them. Yeah... I don't get around to much.

2. Who do I have on speed dial?
answer: Umm I'm not even sure how to set the speed dial on my phone. So no one right now. I've never really used speed dial or my contact list, I've always just remembered the important numbers.

3.Do I recycle?
answer: I never used to. Back before recycling was really the BIG thing to do. My family went to SeaWorld and went to see the Balooga Whale (how in the world do you spell balooga?!) They said that they were going extinct and it was because of all the plastic bags in the ocean. They also said that by recycling just one garbage bag you can save the equivalent of one balooga whale's tale. That caught my attention. When we got home I forced everyone in my family to start recycling. EVERYONE! I had signs and pictures and posters up all over the house telling my parents we needed to save the balooga whales. Now it's just become second nature. We've saved TONS of whales! So the answer to this question is yes I do recycle.

Just A Bunch Of Randomness Thrown Into One Post About A Bunch Of Randomness! ;D

Happy November! Guess what guys we made it! October was a really hard month, but we did it. That was a giant hurdle for me,you can see why here, but I made it. Today is now November 1, 2011. OOOR 11/1/11 haha funny to say. :) Anyways... Today marks the beginning of National Diabetes Awareness Month. Now I don't have Type 1, but I have friends and family that do and I want to help raise as much awareness as I can until they find a cure! One way is by participating in Blue Fridays! This is where every Friday in November you wear blue. That's it as simple as that. I'm totally in! 
     Besides making it to November I've also been busy finishing up October. Here is a lil recap.

I got a temporary tattoo. :) 

I went on a trip to California, my first trip since my diagnosis. 

I curled my hair. And was UBER proud of that amazing curl right there! 

Oh! And I beat my bro at 3-D hopscotch. (We fell... a lot.)

       Yeah I think that's about it. Don't forget to wear blue EVERY FRIDAY IN NOVEMBER!

Keep your head up and thinkin blue,
Ellie <3